Hello, Internet. I’m back on tumblr. *cue fanfare*
A lot has happened in my life in the past year, and I now have to brag/complain/moan about it. I hit my lowest of lows and my highest of highs. I received terrible news and felt completely degraded. I received fantastic news and may have fallen in love. 2011 was the craziest year of my life so far, and I only expect it to get crazier.
I started dating this Japanese kid in April. It was more a lust thing than anything; “IK” could barely speak English, and wasn’t the most…gentlemanly gentleman. But I was happy, at the time. Then I had a cancerous mole removed in May, and wasn’t in the clear until June. Well, I’ll technically never be in the clear…but for now, I’m healthy-ish and optimistic.
IK and I broke it off when we got back to school because he stopped contacting me over summer. I rejoiced, and had the most fulfilling single experience I’ve ever had. For once I felt less dejected and mopey and more independent and spicy, and it felt great. I felt like I could flirt with any guy I wanted - and there were a lot to choose from. While I embraced my newfound confidence, I was met with bad news in October; an old family friend passed away. He was like a grandfather to me. I loved him so much, and he was always there for me. I
Finally, in the beginning of December, my friend “A” confessed his feelings for me. I met A in September, and since then we spent many late nights talking about our pasts, futures, and life dreams. I always found him interesting and attractive, but I was worried about our 6-year age difference…in any case, A and I are happily together right now, and life has been wonderful ever since. I hesitate to use the word “love” too early, but it’s the only feeling I can really express at this point in my situation…yet I’m too afraid to say it. He’s visiting me in January, and I guess we’ll talk about it more then.
I plan to blog more, love more, and feel more. I plan to work harder and more efficiently than ever before. And I plan to be the best person that I can be.